New Oleans Saints

Drew Brees...god?
Just got home from work, well, more like one hour ago, had my first "K" night, you could say that I was the shift leader, even tho I really don't wanna see myself as a "leader". Eh, it's complicated, how I see it, I work with friends and it feels weird to BE the leader all of a sudden, over them...we're on the same level you know what I mean? Oh well, I hope it went well and that I don't have to hear a lot of complaints tomorrow. It felt OK. Jason's watching American Football, his favorite team the New Orleans Saints are playing against some team, it's a big game he tells me, and he's going nuts watching it, singing, commenting, shouting, telling me to look at things, look at this throw, look at that Jennifer!!
Mmmm....yeah...cool...not that interested at all. :P
He's like LOOK! LOOK! LOOK! Keep looking, BOOM!! Touch down!
Drew Brees is like his god, he loves him, he can talk about him for minutes, it's almost a little weird, like...should I be worried? :P

Peace and Dove Clutch

"Give the gift of peace and love this season. Lucky Brand Jeans dresses up their suede/leather clutch wallet with patchwork doves and peace sign graphics."
$79.00 (ouch.)
But it's so pretty, me wantie. Maybe it will give me some peace of mind and some luck? I can already imagine all my cards in that wallet when looking at it, maybe I can wish for this as a Christmas present from Jason, he can find it Macy's. I really need and want a new bigger wallet to fit the million membership cards I have for various shops, haha! Give it to me.

Basic Clothing pt.4

Love is a beautiful thing

At times like these I'm happy to know I'm not alone.
But, however, Jason will be leaving in less then 2 days for US. and that is gonna suck big time.
I wish he wouln't go, even tho I know he needs too.
I'll be all alone in this awful house for 3 weeks. :(
I've already sleept for 6 hours (fell asleep at 9pm and woke up at 3.30 am. kind of wierd) and woke up like an hour ago. Jason's sleeping right now next to me, soon the bed will be empty. Oh, he looks so funny and cute at the same time when he's sleeping, it's hard to imagine maybe but...god, I'll miss him so much!

No, think posivit Jennifer, he'll come back, and you'll work a lot, you have your friends as well. My friends, family and boyfriend means the world to me.

The awful weekend

It's been dark, cold and rainy the whole weekend.
I absolutely hate it.
I went to the mall with Therese this Friday, had an awesome time, Therese made a lot of nice buys when I on the other hand, who have to be concerned about money 24/7 bought this black and white striped top that I'm wearing on SALE for 50 SEK, couldn't say no to that, I'm very satisfied with it. (even tho I wish I could have bought whatever I'd liked or needed, which I really can't) Sleept all saturday morning, woke up in the afternoon, had a fight, went bananas, but then finaly got my and Jason's ass in to the City to enjoy a lovely Asian buffé dinner. (it wasn't lovely really, but it was alright...I had a coupon, and the staff working there looked miserable, I'm talking about the restaurant East City.) Sunday, woke up at 11 am, yay for me, that's the earliest all week I've gotten up from bed, Dad helped me change the tires on my car to winter ones, thanks, and I helped him Christmas decorate his store.
Came home and noticed a crack on my car windshield!!!!! NOOOO! it's ruined, I don't have the money to fix it, it's just gonna have to be there, all ugly...uh...a big crack.
Got inside, started to watch Ugly Betty, enjoyed it fairly, and then my mother barged into my room and forced the vacuum cleaner on me, I asked for a min. but of course NO, I can't possible get a min. and finish the episode off, oh no no, arguing started, and then a huge fight, tears, a lot of finger pointing, and talk about respect which is lacking in the house from everyone, one of the reasons why I hate living at home, people stepping on my boyfriend and talking shit about him, I can't stand and just take that crap. I was yelling like I've never yelled before. Jason hugged me afterward and told me I was brave and strong for once standing up for myself. Then after the fight my mother comes to me and tells me she doesn't want my money anymore and wants me to leave the house, I have one month...
and when getting the news, I hurt my knee when walking towards my room in anger.
So today I feel like shit, and I hate my life!
it's always a fucking struggle!
I hate it, I hate that I'm not feeling happy, I'm not a happy person anymore and thinking about it like that makes me feel so sad and upset. it's like I've lost my spark and my glow...my happiness, cause there's so much negativity surrounding me. Is it all in my head maybe? No...I don't know.
I just really hate life right now.
Dad tells me I will feel so much better though if I move, and I know I will, but where...I can't find a place to live.

Pretty Betty

One of my favorite shows, with CSI and Friends.
Ugly Betty.
I'm getting really stuck watching through the latest few episodes of the new season, season 4.
And the series just keeps getting better and better. I love the characters, the story, and Betty of course, she's got all the right qualities, and I'm loving her new "make-over"!! (what to do you think?)
The outfits are great, colorful and bold, and America Ferrera looks great as always!

(updated 29/11)

For Elin...Amanda, whom she love.

Sleeping Beauty

Shit, It's 4 pm and I just woke up...
I hate sleeping away the morning, but what can I do when I've worked night-shift to 5 am.
Got to bed at 7 am or so...
I still feel tired, but I had the best sleep ever. Had a dream about me getting the chance to try out modeling, haha, it was hard but the pictures came out alright.

This is my weekend off work, but I've already wasted Saturday away by sleeping, sucks, but me and Jason are gonna go out and have some dinner later. Today is my and Jason's day, we're gonna make it special...he leaves for the US in only a couple of days.
I'm gonna miss him.

Ashley Graham

Friends with Crystal Renn, Ashley Graham almost shares the same success as her friend, but I'm surprised I don't see her more, she's stunningly beautiful! She was discovered in her native Nebraska at age 12 and by age 15 she had been signed with Ford Models. Even though she was and is gorgeous, she still had to deal with prejudice; her high school peers would tell her “You’re a fat model. It doesn’t count.” She is conscious that her unique opportunity in plus size modelling probably saved her from developing quite a negative body image in her teens.
She's done jobs for ex. Liz Claiborne & Penningtons, she's also been in Vouge and in several "look books".
I found so many awesome photos of her and it sucks that I can't fit all them into here. But, god, I wish I had some pretty features like here, she's like a cross between Natalie Portman and Eva Mendes!!

Yay for Ashley!

"You can wear what the skinny girls are wearing; a simple top, simple jeans, amazing shoes, belts and jewelry. You just have to find it. And once you've found it you have to know how to wear it."

My WISH LIST

I'm totally in-love with Alexa Chung's Mulberry bag! It's beautiful, perfect size, great investment, it's a bag you can use your whole life time! I bet it cost a fortune (for me) but...I know it will be launched next year, 2010, by Mulberry. I'm gonna check it then for sure, see how much this pretty baby goes for. I love bags, bags and shoes...love em'. Can't be without em'.

I want it so bad!!

Isn't it loooovely?!

Jason's flying back home...

Just booked the ticket :(
We wont spend Christmas eve together.
and we'll be away from each other for 3 weeks.
*sob*
I'm so jealous as well, he's going to New York and I'm not.

Toccara Jones

"Big, black, Beautiful and loving it!"
She participated at America's Next Top Model cycle 3 where she ended on the 7th place. After America's Next Top Model

she signed a contract with Wilhelmina Model, a modeling agency and that's when her career truly began.
She also brought her curves and lively personality to the second season of VH1's Celebrity Fit Club, where she lost 32 lbs. (15kg), and to VH1's Celebrity Paranormal. Toccara gained 14 lbs back and went on to appears on Celebrity Fit Club: Boot Camp, which puts celebrities from past seasons up against new celebrities, and lost a lot of weight again...
Toccara, featured in Rocawear’s “I Will Not Lose” advertising campaign, has modeled for Torrid, Avon, Ashley Stewart, and Target, as well as in the pages of fashion/lifestyle magazines like Essence, Vibe, and Smooth. She has appeared on several magazine covers as well.
She's also had a spread in Italian Vogue!!!!

Yay for Toccara!

Why do you think the world needs you?
"Not only am I plus-size, but I have curves. Most American women have curves. Cassie was on the show worrying about toning up her booty. I'm like, "Girl, booty is a good thing! We like booty!" Then you have Norelle pointing to her li'l hip bone. Embrace that. It's a shame we see these false images of women and think we have to conform. That's not normal"

What a disaster

Ralph Lauren’s latest Photoshop disaster, the image that he didn't want you to see.
He's been all over the news lately because of it...
...and he fired the model to the left, Filippa Hamilton, for supposedly being "too fat" to fit their sample sized clothing.
Oh lord.
Ralph Lauren claims that it was an oversight, but come on, how can you look at that image and instantly think that it looks proportional or even...OK? What happened to her hips? hello?
...and when you thought he learned his lesson...this image to the right pops up on an Australian website for Ralph Lauren.

I'm gonna apply for it...

Just looked up some info. on how to apply for a US visa.
in 2010 I'm moving to the US. (if I don't find my own apartment in Sweden.) I just really can't stand living at home and putting up with people's bullshit.

Good bye assholes!
(when saying "assholes" I don't mean everyone, I love my true friends!)

Eh, not so pretty...

(ooo...he looks annoyed, waah!)

(shit he looks PISSED!)

(aw, all forgiven)

(Ha-yah)

(Evil eye)

(chinese retard)

(Joy...oh....joy.)

(Ouch, trying to hold it together but again, i look like a retard)

...this is what happens when you try to force Jason to be on pictures, not so pretty.
But it's so much fun teasing him.

Basic Clothing pt.3

Great...:(

We've been banned from Xbox Live. Gah!!
Now I have NO use for it. And here I thought I saved some money, oh no no, I'm gonna ask if my brother's gonna wanna buy it off me so that it can be ONLY his now, since...me and Jason can't play on it any more...
HOW ANNOYING! But I understand tho, why they ban people...we're "cheaters" I guess.

Kate Dillon

As a pre-teen she struggled with her weight plunging into the lonely world of anorexia that was exacerbated by entering the world of fashion modeling.
It all started in the early nineties when, at 17, she won a $75,000 Elite modeling contract and was whisked away from her family to dress in the clothes of divas and pose under the hot lights and glare of those who run the industry. Eventually at 19, she came to her senses and took a break for a few years.
After a break from regular modeling, in 1996 she ventured into the world of plus size modeling and eventually signed with the Wilhelmina Agency. She had found her niche. It showed in her eyes, her cheeks and her curves. She quickly developed a large fan base.

Over both of her careers Kate Dillion has modelled for such companies as: Chanel, Christian Dior, Elisabeth, Gucci, Lane Bryant, Liz Claiborne, L'Oreal, etc. She has strutted her stuff down the runways of Paris and she's graced the face of such fashion magazines as Vogue & Glamour.

"I think most women feel they need to be thin because thinness, in our culture, somehow represents strength and self-containment.
To lose weight is to have ones life in order, while to gain weight conversely means one's life must be falling apart.
It's ridiculous! I know that when I gained weight was when I began to heal and come alive."
www.squidoo.com
More info and interview click here. :)

Proud big sister

My sister cheer-dances. or whatever you should call it, I like to just call it cheer-leading really.
But, whatever.
She's so good! I'm so proud, I have to see her teams next performance in the SM competition in Uppsala next year! She's so good she's excelled into a better team now. Yay for my little sister.
(she's the one jumping up of happiness at the end.)

Kebab & Chips

Since it's Friday night I'm breaking me diet and I'm having some Kebab with bread and Chips n' Dip. Mmmmm, Yummy! I'm so full right, yet very satisfied. Thank you Elin for the Kebab that's lasted us for almost a month now, and thank you whoever it is that invented the snacks, Chips!
My mom says the funniest and stupidest things sometimes, I commented one of the girls outfits in tonight's Swedish Idol.
- Hmm, She's mixing zebra and leopard patters on her outfit, interesting. *sounding overly interested*
- WHAT!?
- Am I gonna have to repeat my joke? *I repeat*
- Ah, yes...it becomes Africa!

What? haha...mom...

Now I'm gonna lie down and be cozy with my mom and little sister in the living-room, and then after that get ready for 4 awesome hours of work at the restaurant.

Petite Nicole

The 18-year-old girl from Louisville, Colorado who was born with bloody eyeball beat Laura to be the first petite model in the show's history. Nicole entered the competition as the shy and awkward red-head, but slowly evolved into a beautiful and charismatic girl!
I liked both Nicole and Laura in this cycle, I loved Laura's personality and I loved Nicole's pictures, Nicole's very natural at modeling and has already created her own signature walk and poses. What I like about Nicole as well is that she's an artist, I've seen some paintings that she's made and I admire her for that, I wish I could draw beautiful paintings like that.
I'm sad to see that Laura didn't make it, however, all in all...Nicole did a better job and is somewhat more fit as a high fashion model compared to Laura who's more of a Cover-girl, But I loved Laura! She kicked as on the run way, but her cover-girl photo shot wasn't that amazing in my opinion. Too bad, she's so adorable. oh well...
Congrats Nicole, the first petite model (first red-head?) ever, to win Americas next top model!

"Winner photo", shot my Nigel Barker.

Whitney Thompson

Five other full-figured models tried before her but it was the Twenty-one year old student from Atlantic Beach, Florida who became the first full-figured model to win the title of America's Next Top Model, Cycle 10.
Whitney received favorable reviews on her looks and photo shoots on and off. She was often accused of being too beauty pageanty and was even once compared to Anna Nicole Smith (who's idea was it to turn her into a blonde anyway - oh yeah, Tyra's). But, she keept on fighting for the win and got it.

There are SO many pictures of her, it's so hard to pick out just a few.

"Right before I left to do the first episode in L.A., I was with one of my best friends and she said, 'You're fat. You are not going to make it in this competition, So every week that I made it, I was like, 'Ha!' Obviously, we're not friends anymore."

Time for Work

Time to go to work.
Doesn't "work" look good? ;)
The burgers sure are tasty, but the job sure is exhausting and stressful.
But I survive.

Basic Clothing pt.2

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