Hope you guys had a great week so far!
Nothing new in my life, besides some personal struggles. Since I started this blog (or even my very FIRST plus size blog back in 2007) I changed my view of myself. Before I was so self conscious and doubt myself a lot, didn't think I was good enough or good looking enough for any guy, I was too big, not skinny, flabby! You name it, so plus size blogging really helped me build my confidence and reach self acceptance. The plus size community is amazing, I adore everyone that's a part of it, I'm fortunate enough to have met a lot of you too, which I'm really happy about. I was feeling strong and happy with where I was at in life back then, in the beginning.
After that, planning a big move to the U.S. Moving forward, excelling in life. Doing something new.
After coming here it kind of went downwards, everything became harder, still trying really hard looking at things from the bright side, telling myself that everything is fine, kind of convincing myself that this is normal. To be in a mentally abusive relationship is NOT ok! It is NOT normal.
But I was blind.
Time went by and you can only take so much of it, that I finally broke free. Not easily though, not at all. To be completely free I need to go get my own place. Anyway. So I was feeling better again. Good things started to happen in my life again. It felt like it was "meant to be" for me to break free and focus on myself only.
TELL ME, why am I feeling like I'm on the bottom again? Relationships man....right?!
They fuck with your mind, your heart and soul. I love this person but the struggles make my heart ache.
So I'm in this "stay strong" mode, I don't want to feel discouraged! I want this, and all my doubts and self consciousness needs to go. Because it only causes me to think negative, and I hate it.
I'm just like having a mind struggle, and it sucks. Anyone got any tips on how to stay confident in a relationship? Please, comment below! ;)
Anyways, enough of my blabbering!
What I'm wearing:
Jacket from SHE MISS, Top from HM, Skirt from Forever21 Plus size, Stockings from HM, Flats from Payless Shoestore, Necklace from HM.